Which Way Is Up...........Always look to him.

Well Readers its ya boy Skel,


God is too good to me. I had another soap opera or reality show moment yesterday. Over all I have to give GOD the glory, it could have been worse, but it was a very hard and emotional thing to endure. The authorities were at Mission Control, that's my humble abode, I name everything. LOL Anyway yet again Vera was here and this time it was specifically for me and they brought the EMT. I know exactly how it happened just can't believe it happened to me. But again I say I give God the glory. Though yesterday was hard and I acted in ways that are not conducive at all to what I am trying to accomplish, I could hear his voice the whole day. I am finding that making an outward change in ones life is only slightly less difficult then making one an inward one, if there is any difference at all. I have had to bore deep down in to my self to deal with all the demons, detriments,and bad memories in order to move forward with my life, but God walked me through and right on out of that trap. It took some years but it finally became personal and now we have this forward motion down to a science. I am consistently and constantly moving forward in life, open t o, aware of, and seeking things that will aid in my endeavors. As well as obtaining access to outlets of frustration and discord, though I have been having a feeling that I am stalled or stunted in some way as of late. This wasn't so bad at first. I had been working so hard and so long on so many aspects of my life, a break was welcomed and well received. Only now I am ready to get back to work, and find myself with out the foggiest idea of what to do.
Now that I have gotten to the root of all my bad decisions and misdoings, now that I have learned where my worth lies, and where my power resides how do I overcome. I have done too much evolving and growing for me to do things the way I used to and feel comfortable, so show me how to be this new and revolutionary person. I ask what it is you want me to do Lord? How do I get from this place, which is not all together bad or good, just where I am. Help me to live in your glory and your word, putting what you have taught me in to action. Please please don't let my yesterday dictate my tomorrow. My limitations have spawned dreams and ideas that are significantly and distinctly my own and can only be acheived through you.
This journey, that perfect storm began with my floor was ripped from under me and the world came crashing down on my head. BUT GOD. You covered me through the fall and held me close through the climb, and I am eternally grateful. You were my eyes on the journey to the depths of my soul and the strength that brought me back. I willingly and humbly give these issues to you so that you can bless them and I can share your power and glory. I have been taught how to be humble, and shown how to love, and I want to share that joy with the world.

I leave you with these words: The hardest thing I have ever had to do was look at myself and when I didn't find him I had to seek the Lord. I have a ways to go yet but if he doesn't do anything else hes already done enough. I am here living another day.

HARVEST TIME

What's going on Good People? Ya boy Skel here...... back in action.

I haven't been Ranting as much as I would have liked in the last couple of weeks. God has really been taking me through some sessions. I honestly don't even know where to begin. There is just so much I want to say. From my eyes being opened wider to this world, God, and most important (for this particular time at least) MYSELF. I have always had ideas, and have never had much problems letting them be known. Yet when you look at it where am I? What am I doing with any of the information, education, talents, or gifts that I posses? The list can just go on and on. For a long time I felt bad for having these thoughts , or at the very least strange. I am the kind of fellow that marches to his own tune. The way I think and see the world is so simple yet apparently unique. Well I am determined to make that work for me in this life time and on this earth.
I have been writing about overcoming a long and difficult period in my life, and how God was key in pulling me out of it. I can really say now that I am over and through a major, necessary and very difficult change in my life. It is the most amazing feeling, one I have experienced before but very rarely. The first time I heard my daughter call me daddy. When I saw my ex wife's foot coming down the stairs on our wedding day. The day my son was born. Just to name some of the safe ones LOL. Like I know even, this moment, and this time is going to forever be etched in my memory. When GOD presented me with a precious and permanent gift in my life.
Only this time he gave me, ME. This whole ordeal has taught me what kind of person I am, what I am made of, and who I serve. From here on out there is no telling where my life will go only I know that it gets better. Because now I have a purpose and not just a goal or a plan. There is nothing wrong with any of those things but I am finding that all three must be present and working together for anything to be different; in my life at least. Until now I have had no other purpose then to take care of those around me that I love. There were two things wrong with that, however, that I am so glad GOD taught me. I have to be included in those loved ones and I have to have the means to take them. I have lived all of my conscious life half way, going form one side to the other but never really whole. For me to achieve the life I have always seen myself living I had to have, know, and love myself and GOD simultaneously. I have to believe in the vessel being used as well as trust that it will do what it was meant to. I am excited and prepared for all the pleasure and pain that is on the horizon because I am alive, I am Me, and My GOD is on my side. I am ready for the my harvest of promises, reciprocity's, and manifestations before me. Thank you GOD

I leave you with this: Get to know and love the person you are and see how much better your life gets, I dare you LOL.

Seasons changed, Ideas arranged

Hello out there my blogspot readers, Skel here,


I haven't written anything in a while, and it hasn't been for lack of trying. I have a box full of drafts trying to put in to words how I felt and what i wanted to say. Yet none of them seemed to express or convey what I wanted. Everything just seemed to come to a halt, and I couldn't find any understanding in too many people or things around me. I even went back and reread some of the older entries, hoping that I would get some clarity or inspiration, and I did. It just wasn't enough to pull out anything in me to write. LOL Instead I was provoked in to deep thought, which in turn brought forth some serious prayers and conversations with the Lord. I asked what it was God was trying to show me. I had to know what it was that I was not getting? I believed that it had to be me, so I went deeper into my mind, deeper in to my heart, and deeper in to myself. This reeked with a semblence of depression but it was neccessary. I remember saying that I wanted something better or just wanted something to change, though it didn't really seem like that was occurring, and I still couldn't figure out why.
I seemed to be stuck surrounded by people and things who had no idea what I was talking about or trying to do, and had no intentions on finding out, because of what they felt was being or been done to them. My thoughts, feelings, and predicament was of no importance to them as long as they were fine and i was still breathing. It didn't matter that I was homeless, it didn't matter that I was alone, it didn't matter that I was hurting physically and emotionally, and as long as I had breath I should just shut up and be happy. I got this attitude so much so that I stopped expecting to have anyone in my corner or for me. But GOD. THANKYOU LORD. I can sit here and talk about GOD with as much love, passion and understanding that I do because I had no other choice but to trust him. It was either trust in him or die, literally, and I would have gone straight to hell. Real talk, not because I was a horrible person, (contrary to popular belief) but because my heart was not right. I was holding on to people and emotions that I thought I had dealt with. I felt worthless and that i wouldn't get any kind of REAL love from anyone other then GOD. All because my family and some so called friends had turned their backs on me. But through strangers and other unlikely sources GOD kept me here, even when I wanted to give up ( and I really did ) he kept me here. THANKYOU GOD. I thought that because some formerly important people from my past had reentered my life that i was being given a second chance to do some things right. Only just today it clicked finally, I don't want them back in my life. Especially if I have to fight or do extra to have them there. I have always been a person to warn and let it be known when things aren't right and are subject to going a certain kind of way. My actions from that point might not have been liked, but shouldn't have been unexpected.
I have been pining over fixing my old life instead of really embracing and embarking on something new. If you are not in my life the way you used to be there is a reason, and there is no need for me to sugar coat that any more. I have reached a new place with in myself. Not only am I done with the hell and the storm I had been in for years, but GOD has opened my eyes to certain people in this world. Nothing needs to be said, they know who they are or soon shall. I still have love for everyone who has blessed my life with their presence no matter how short or long, but I have places to go and I am no longer in the business of holding myself back for people who can't get with the program of togetherness, friendship, and/or family. I will never forget you or love you any less, but most important I will no longer try to recapture what we had. It will either be new or nothing at all and i am just fine with that, because GOD always knows whats best.

I leave you with these words: Anything you truly love you should be able to let go, if the love is genuinely reciprocated then it will come back to you .