Hello again what ever readers that I have. It's ya boy Skel.
Well the good news is that my emotional plummet is stabilizing. Not where I would like it to be of course, but it's is no longer losing altitude with each breath. I believe the over all cause of everything that I am going through now is that I am tired. I have mentioned a couple of times that there has been a long standing issue that I really thought would be at a close now. Just lonely and fed up lol. I had too many people in my life who were talkers and not doers. I am a doer, if there is something that I want or want to do I usually find a way to do it. So with that acknowledgment of myself I can't very well let this plummet stop me from reaching my goals now can I?
How many of you readers has had to literally start all over again? When everything you had and had worked for was suddenly gone and just time and space were left fill up your day. I mean in life not just a project. (LOL) I have to admit I never thought it would happen but I had lost my self and control of my life in other people and my situations. I refuse to do it anymore, and MOST DEFINITELY refuse to go back to the way life used to be. So here I stand at this crossroads contemplating. There are some people that I never got out of my system and there as been talks of a reunion, but as time goes on it seems to be more talking then doing. We have already discussed that lol. I want to start this new life and enjoy this new era, and to do that I need to be in control of my faculties and open and trusting of my close surroundings. I finally admitted to myself how disappointed I have been since my birthday and why. I am basically tired of not being listened to, which is why I have taken to venting my thoughts frustrations and idea through writing and on here. How people are in each others lives and can't notice characteristics and issues that stare them in the face is beyond me. I am figuring out that if I was to enter or reenter in to a relationship I have to be sure about myself and that person. What makes you sure you ask? Well I will tell you even if you didn't LOL. Its in the actions. Whether or not a person is doing the acts that you need them to and some things that you just want. The fact that they visibly try to accommodate or work with you can mean a lot and directly effect the longevity of the union. That's across the board from relationships to family, friends and business associates.
Its taken me a while to really put these thoughts and feelings in to play in my life instead of just thinking about how I think things should be. I have had to truly sit and reevaluate things in my life. AGAIN!!!!! I did say that I was starting from scratch. To get to this point I had to do things a certain way, but now that I am here things must change and evolve still. This ability to evolve with out changing who and what I am is one of the most important personality traits I posses. Though just like every other gift or talent there is a possibility for it to be lost or decreased due to the lack of use. So pray with me, pray for me, and hey if you got things going on that you would like to share hit me up at Phoenix_Rizzen@yahoo.com. This way I can comment or address them on the blog without putting any ones name or business on the world wide web. LOL Hit me up, lets talk and lets figure out this thing called life together as members of the human race. Become a maniac and rant with me........lol...........about the good times, the bad times and even those moments when there is no distinction between the two. Life is easier, better, and much more enjoyable when it is shared with good, positive, and motivated people.
I leave you with these words: Life is the greatest gift we will ever get, so cherish it because it can be over in an instant. LOVE YA SMOOCHES
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