From Yesterday to Today

Whats going on Readers, its ya boy Skel here.


I can remember at 27 coming to the realization that life was ticking away and major ideas and goals I had weren't even close to being achieved. Life was as a stand still, relationships were crumbling all around me and I was sinking deeper into the abyss of depression. Then one day everything that I had been almost skillfully balancing just began to topple over. Major shifts occurred in my life that I had no control over. I tried to go with the flow at first, relying heavily on my newly rekindled love affair with the Lord. Operation "Get My Life Together" was conceived, nurtured, and born from this ordeal. As time marched on, as it will inevitably do, a finish line emerged. I had made up my mind to live for Jesus and clean out my life, getting rid of any residual feelings and people that were contrary to my conscience choice to make a change.
I searched for purpose. Purpose for my being alive and being the me that I couldn't help but be if I tried, which I did. I realized that a good amount of the circumstances and and issues from that moment to this was because I didn't know who i wanted to be and didn't like the person I was. That's when the hard part began. I had to look at myself objectively. The harsh realities of my behavior and actions could not be minimized just because they were my own, but had to be confronted and faced. In order to come to any sort of solution, acceptance, and/or closure. It was a long hard and lonely walk. At times the darkness all around seemed to be an extention of me, I didn't think I could, would, or even wanted to make it. Yet here I stand, 30, determined, self aware, and self motivated, and quite soon self sufficient. I don't want to worry about money, I don't want to worry about back stabbing or disguised friendship, and from this day forward I won't. There are people in my life that have their own special place in my heart and will for ever, but my priorities are no longer what anyone else's perception, opinion, or expectations of me. Phase 1 of operation "Get My Life Together" is complete. I have found value, respect, and love for myself. I know what I am capable of bringing to the world, now I am out here embracing and relishing what the Lord has for this world to offer me.
The only relationships I am now pressed about maintaining are that of myself, my children, and GOD. All other components and characters in my life story may come, may go, and some may even become a permanent staple, but this life I live is now and forever MY OWN.

Hope this glimpse in to my life was interesting to say the least but most of all I hope its helpful to someone. Its quite helpful to me even now and I lived through it LOL. I will leave you with these words.
CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF KNOWLEGE IS THE KEY....... WIELDING THAT KNOWLEGE IS THE TRUE POWER.